As you might imagine, I've been thinking a lot about friendships these past few days, especially female friendships I've made. Which is sort of ironic, considering that one of my most recent posts was about sisterhood, and how I was feeling like I came late to the table of female friendship.
The friend I lost this weekend was the co-founder of the working mom's group I started (another irony, since I'm not currently working outside the home). She wasn't someone I necessarily would have chosen to befriend, except for our circumstances: she was also kicked out of the stay-at-home-moms group that we joined for companionship and support when there were no other alternatives (we joked about this for years). She wasn't and she was like me: unlike me, she loved her TV shows, she smoked, she was much more laid back than I am, she drove an SUV ... but more like me, she loved her children fiercely, she was smart, she was strong, and she was ready with a wisecrack or with an ear at just the right times. Together, we coalesced a diverse group of women who were negotiating the balance of work outside the home and the commitments we wanted to make to our families. The group has been through its ups and downs, and has been pretty quiet formally for the past year or so, but it still exists, and it was responsible for some unlikely life-changing friendships, even if we weren't the ones who were changed.
Crisis has a knack for doing this, doesn't it? On the anniversary of September 11th, I also think about the friendships that were forged over that tragedy ... the people who happened to be in the same place at the same time watching in horror, or the people who had to cope, together, with the aftermath of unexpected loss, finding each other at the scene of devastation. Because sometimes, despite the best intentions of others, you simply need someone who gets it, someone who has been exactly where you were. And sometimes they can take you down roads you would never have traveled.
The blogosphere is like this, too. There are certainly "tribes" of people that form, reinforcing the things we already share in common. We look for them, because they make us feel better about our writing and our belief systems. But there are also "circumstantial" connections that we make, happenstance meetings that change our writing, our career paths, our decisions ... sometimes our lives. And those are just as worth treasuring as the ones that mirror our experiences.
When I lived in LA, I ran into an old acquaintance ... someone who'd had a thing for me back in college. He introduced me his high school friend and wife in San Francisco, and the wife introduced me to her friend, whom she made through an ex-boyfriend, in LA. The chain of coincidences that were required for me to meet this woman was dizzying. But it was one of the most important friendships I made when I was out there. C. was like everyone's older sister or aunt, and she took me under her wing. I have memories of going to visit her in her apartment, cats curling around my leg. Perhaps most importantly, I remember sitting with her on the 3rd Street Promenade eating pizza that claimed to be just like New York's best, talking with her about my dissatisfaction with graduate school. Her answer? "So why don't you leave?"
It had never occurred to me that I could ... but I did. That chance connection, to someone I would never have befriended, changed everything.
I really ought to catch up with her again.
Today, be open to the happenstance connections in your life. You may be surprised at where they take you.
Has a circumstantial/happenstance acquaintance ever changed your life?
One Pot Fudge Brownies
Though the memory is grainy like an Instagram photo, I recall us making these brownies in C.'s house one day, or was it a place I was housesitting? maybe after going out for Indian food. They were completely inedible as brownies; we had to use a spoon to eat them right out of the pan. But they were exactly right. I've since tweaked the recipe, and now you can actually cut them and remove them from the pan, but you do have to wait for them to cool. Otherwise, be prepared to break out your spoon. And no, these are not very attractive. Do you really need attractive brownies?
1/2 c.butter1 2/3 c. sugar
2 T. water
4oz. unsweetened chocolate
2 eggs, beaten
1 1/2 t. vanilla
1 1/3 c. flour
1/4 t. baking soda
1/4 /t .salt
6 to 12 ounces of good dark chocolate chips or chunks
Preheat oven to 325.
Spray a 9x9" baking pan with cooking spray.
Melt butter in a medium to large pot over medium-low heat. Stir in sugar and water and mix until the sugar is completely dissolved. The water will want to do its own thing; don't worry about that. Remove from heat and stir in the chocolate until completely combined. Stir in the eggs, one a a time, and then vanilla. Mix well. Put some elbow grease into it. Resist the urge to lick the spoon at this point.
Sift together the dry ingredients, then add to the pot. Stir well. You'll see that the mixture begins to look like one large mass of chocolate dough. That's right.
Add the chocolate chips/chunks and mix briefly but thoroughly, so that they don't melt too much. Pour into the prepared pan and bake for 25-35 minutes, until a toothpick comes out gooey but not wet. Allow the brownies to cool in the pan thoroughly before you attempt to cut them, and then do so with a wet knife.
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